we're in dire straits as far as hope and i think president obama and vice president biden give people in desperation that hope. you've had times in your life where you've had absolutely nothing, no money, no hope, nothing. you've had times in your life when you've had hundreds of millions of dollars. then you've lost it and now you're getting back there again. tell me about the difference psychologically when you have nothing, when you have money. where is real happiness throughout that process? >> from my perspective, i can only tell you from my ordeals in life and challenges, it all comes from inside. i never had happiness within. that's why i was all about chaotic. i was addicted to chaos because i'm looking for happiness out there somewhere. it has to be within. so it's mostly like an inside job. i learned all this stuff when i went to my rehab stint, i got involved with the recovery program and i realized this is what happiness is, what we make out of it, you know. the reason why i'm not in trouble anymore from that -- i'm not in problems with women, not fighting in clubs because